Two things I don't Write About

One thing I don’t write about
is pregnancy
the other is the bikini wax
this may be because I’ve never
experienced either
it may also be because I think
about both a lot
occasionally at the same time

the thing about pregnancy
and the bikini wax
is that you have to wonder, don’t you?
when you’re female identified
and of a certain age
what it would have been like,
if it would have made you happier
better, and more loved

you were so certain once,
it just was not for you
but you have to wonder, don’t you?
now its too late,
or is it? always that past midnight
gut churn, palm itch, eye burn
query: now its too late,
is it?

you've watched friends take
the treacherous leap, to emerge
exhausted, teary eyed,
always the immutable law
of change and growth applies
and you, you’ll grow old
alone, in some nursing home,
hairy.

one thing I don’t write about
is pregnancy
the other is the bikini wax
and I don’t think I’ll ever do it again
but I’ll always think
about both a lot
because I’ve never tried either
and that marks me